November 2010
November 29th, 2010
(Written in Government class)
(Current Notebook)
(2:24-ish)
This is the last page of this notebook. There are a few more blank pages but this is the one farthest back that isn’t filled in.
We’re okay now, us two. It’s not ideal, but the ideal would have us properly together. That’s not who she wants to be though and so
What did I remind myself of -no, better rephrase...
Tomorrow, Coda
I spent all Thursday burning through Halo: Reach which, after the panic, planning, and catharsis of the day before, was kind of a dull let down. Lauren invited me to go hang out with Tiffany and Alex while they waited in line on Black Friday, but I almost didn’t feel like going, until our family’s Thanksgiving dinner turned into a mind-numbing boredom when the good cousins bowed out...
I know what it is
This feeling I’ve had since Monday night.
I thought it was just not caring about consequences, like everyone else.
It’s beyond that, though.
For the first time, my heart feels empty.
Not that cold void that I’ve felt before, when I’m at my worst.
Just…emptiness. I don’t know how else to describe it.
Where did this come from?
I’ve always been overly...
